Czechdiamond

Friday, September 03, 2004

hmm... so my dad is pissing me off so bad! we really dont get along, and the other day before jessica came to pick me up, we got in our usuall argument's andwhen i was getting in the car juan was like "are you going to tell us what's wrong?" i asume he could tell i was a bit pissed off, i just told him "nothing's wrong" and ofcourse juan and jessica cheered me up a bit, im happy as long as im not home! but yeah im planning on moving out this coming summer and getting an apartment with jess and peggy! juan wants me to go try out at the place he models with him, and since my parents are bitches and dont want me to model while im in there house cause "its a false dream crystal, the chances of you going any were with modeling is slim, why dont you go to college and do somthing with your life" and when i told them i wanted to join the marines it was worse" you want to joing the marines and you cant even do that, come on crystal you say you can make it in the marines prove it to me, do the impossible?" "why would you want to go commit suicide? anyone that wants to go fight for there country is a dumb ass there just going to get killed" he pushed me so hard one time i started crying, and he told me that "you cant cry in the marines!" and hes absolutley right! grrrr....... anways so i think im going to tryout for modeling when i move out next summer June 3rd 2005, i just dont know when im going to tell my parents about it i dont want to tell them at the last minute cause my bro. moved out when he turned 18 with no warning and my dad still holds that against him but i dont want to tell them too soon cause then my dad will make my life a living hell!!

happy thoughts, happy thoughts! oh i finally decided, after a few dumb mistakes, that i do want a serious relationship, and as corny as it may sound i really want to find someone i can love, and im really trying to stop with how ive been acting about relationships and look past my sterotype that all men want is sex even though i still believe that, i guess im just tired of finding these awsome guys and ditching them cause im dont want to get attached, and i am talking to a certian someone right now, and hes defently not my type, he's a football player, but he just seems so different from all the typical jock's, i already know he wants sex cause when i first ment him he told one of our friends hes wants to get in my pants, but i dont know maybey if we continue to talk he'll see more then just a peice of ass! (im not being negative i just really deep down know we wont work out but ill give it a try anyway) and im not happy with my grades right now but that's why im trying to do better, and trying not to be my lazy self and just say fuck it! were finally actually dancing instead of just fucking around in dance class, the majority of the chicks are still bitches ill probl. end up getting into it with one of them before the end of the year, but i did meat a girl from germany or russia one of those places and she's going to homecoming with me and my grp, i told her i'd get her a date, another project for me, shoulnt be to hard cause she's a cutie but still!! and plus i have to find myself a date but ive got time!

well i need to go clean up a lil bit, so i can go out with peggy and her sis tonite, asheley (her sis) wants to hook me up with one of her friends there like 20 and shit, i just want to go and get drunk and have some fun, like i said im not trying to be a lil pimpette anymore i just want one guy in my life! tommorow im going out with jessica and peggy, maybey to andrews or somthing! hope everyone is having a great weekend! luv ya! sorry its so long!

-crystal-

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