Czechdiamond: Mom and derrick

Czechdiamond

Friday, December 10, 2004

My mom is still in the hospitial (2 weeks) and im sad and dpressed and angry and frustrated and i just need her right now she's become my best friend and she is the only reason i stay in this damn house if she hnas to stay in there any longer i think im going to just walk out! im so upset right now, everything is going to hell right now and although she never can get me completly non=depressed, she atleast make's me feel a bit better to were i dont just want to die!!

i want Derrick to come over and just hold me and comfort me, but i cant call him cause he's out getting drunk and hanging out with his best friends, so for one i dont know there number and two i wouldnt ruin his good time just cause i want to fuckin die right now. I never would call him up crying cause i dont want him to feel sorry for me or think of me of as a cry baby grl...i really wish i could talk to him about everything but i guess some things are just better of as a secret! But i still want my babe here w/ me! :(

Crystal @ 4:33 PM | comment