OMG for the past to fuckin day's our stupid school has been gossiping about doug and trevor killing jeramia and jason, its pissing me off cause half of them dont even know what the hell happend, and there just spreading rumors and shit, its sad its not somthing to go running around and telling all your friends about! 3 people died, you'd think people would be a bit more civil!! and doug better fuckin get the death sentence! My sister was balling her eyes out last night cause of it all and eric was there jason died cause he jumed infront of eric, so nathan's pissed cause eric (his brother) almost died and he wants to go kill doug!!! its because the fuckin drug's!! i hope eric and them learned a lesson from this shit! and i really hope theyll stop with the drugs!! well atleast the serious shit, im really sick of hearing about some kid that was fucked up on cocaine shooting himself in the head and all the fights for the same damn reason!
yeah and i finally got transferred out of p.e. into dance, which is good cause its somthing i can actually dance but it fuckin blows cause the bitch's in there with there fake tans and 200$ purses, i wanna slap a few of them around! i miss my pot head friend's in p.e. and me and john were seriously talking about shit the other day and it all really made since i was just like "woah i havent talked about serious shit like this with anyone in a long time" and ofcourse jack, she's the greatest, but man she got high right before she came to class and i was just laughin my ass of at her, there's so many great people in there, the hottie whos in the band, nelson (hes a hottie) and all of them (and i dont like that class just cause there's alot of hottie's in there, they are really cool people) but yeah ill probl. skip dance and go hang out with them anyways!
im going to see my uncle this weekend! well 2nd uncle but whatever whos counting! there so great, i love talking to denise and bud is such a smart ass but i came from the same blood line so i can be just as sarcastic as him!! lol and im starting to realize i miss how my brother use to be now that he's with his soon to be wife he never party's anymore hes always doing hous work or doing somthing in the yard and when there doing somthing fun it has to be somthing the kid's can do i miss his party side going out to the lake house getting drunk etc... he said that he'd take me a my sister and we'd all go party together but with donna bein his mommy now i dont knw if he'll ever get the chance! owell im out of here!!
so for some odd reason ive been bubbly as you can see from my cool unky mood afier!! ok so yeah im just acting weird almost like when you get that whole tingly feeling inside or somthing like your falling in love but yeah that's not happening here!!! and i defently dont see knight an shining armor, well maybey a few i could kick and the ass and they almost could be one! but the point is i just have this feeling that dosent happen to often, its good!
enough about that, they still havent changed my schedule to the dance class! it fucken blows but there's alot of cool peep's in my current class of course all a bunch of drugie's and lil punks but there cool! and like i predicted i have tons of make up work that i still havent done but i will be doing tommorow for sure!!
"where is my mind? where is my mind? " Yeah i love music! i love you i love me! and im starting to sound like a damn barney episode so ill end at that!!
ive been really sick the whole weekend so i dint do anything which really Blows! but jessica and peggy stopped by and brought me some soup movie's and M&M's!! and they sat down and talked for a while! they are the greatest!!! i love yall!! and i went to the doctor yestarday and they gave me three medicine's, 1 was for nausea but it made me sleep all day!! im not taking that one again but the other's seem to be making me better which is defently positive! i need to get back to school, before i have to much make up work!! plus my uncle bud just bought some lake front property and him and denise want me to come up there for the weekend, and tuesday i start baby-sitting my neace and nephew from any were to 3-8, and they really dont need to be getting sick!
well im going to go take a shower now!! ill write more laterz!
so as you can see my post are starting to lesson, school started soo yeah i problaly wont be online that often! school take's up most of my time as it is and if i get in to the ohla club, like i want to, then its just gonna add that much more time! school BLOW'S!! i'm sick, i have a cold or somthing!
last weekend peggy came over with some bitch and some wanna be pimp and peggy ended up spending the nite, played pool went to sleep, got up and went to get some food! chris came over for a little while and peggy went home around 3, and did nothing the rest of the day then sunday morning got up around 7, cause my dad decided we were going to go just right out of austin, Tx and go to a place called hamiltons pool it's not a pool its like a little lake it has a water fall coming down from the top its so pretty i have picture's ill get them up soon!! and then we went to somerville and went to this little country reastruant i love that place! and we got home around 10 i was soo tired the next morning!
And now im sick, and i have tons of home work already!!! grrr.....so yeah im gonna go do that! ooooh listening to american idioit by green day, its good listen to it! later!!!!
wendsday was my first day of school wasnt to exciting, but after school i went to my sister's boy intrest (whom she's not going out with officially yet cause she just got out of a recent relationship with wes) house for his suprise party hes from el salvador, and i ment his whole family and they were all really wonderfull, they all welcomed me in like the'd known me for years! and i ment a girl i think elise was her name she was so proper she's visiting from estonia and she goes to a private school over there, she has an accent but she speaks very good english! i thought she was like 14 or 15 and i found out she is 11, it was cute she was ll asking me about my boyfriends and stuff and about love, it was just soo cute how she was so amazed of the idea of falling in love! but anyways carlos (the intrest of my sisters right now) came home with all his friends and i ment them all then they started dancing and i usually dont start dnacing untell ive had a drink in me but they all talked me into it and it was cool cause when i wasnt dancing i was talking to this really cool guy he was born in america but his parents are from mexico, he was 23 and he was just soo fun to talk to, and when i was dancing i was dancing with this amazing dancer, he was from el salvador i think too and he taught me some spanish dance, like salsa or somthing! so i was like going back in forth it between them i wish i could have just combinded them to make the perfect guy lol some one to talk and laugh with but who's can dance! it was fun i really like carlos hes the 2nd only boyfriend of sabrina's that i really like! and today peggy's coming over im excited cause i havent seen her in so long but she's bringing some girl named stephanie, and i dont even know the chick so its probl. going to be kinda okward i guess! and tommorow my dad and me are suppose to be doing somthing but he wont tell me what it is so i dont know! Greg sent me and emial it was short but it was an email : ) i hope he has fun in spring branch!! hmmm well i think thats about it! ill write more intresting (not really intresting but i can pretend) stuff later!!
havent written in like a week! but i had a very intresting weekend i got high for the first time, i defently enjoyed that! and ofcourse i had to drink! and i did some other things that dont need to be said! lets just say it was quite a intresting weekend and sunday nite and monday morning was a scare, monday afternoon was ok cause i got a few drinks in me, tuesday was fine and today im just tired and im sooo sick of school, and all the damn people! and i dint even see alot of people that i wanted to! grr.....! well im going to find somthing to watch on t.v.! logan if and when you read this call me, i havent talked to you in forever im worried!! i hope everything's fine and your just on the cruise your were talking about going on! but still call me i want to talk to you! luv ya!
yeah i was right! me and my dad arnt doing shit today! but i think he kinda felt bad cause we arnt, so i told him well if were not doing anything today can i go "spend the nite at jessica's house" he said i could if i want! which jess has been bugging me to come with her to some place that starts with a c cant think of the name atm but yeah its some were in the woods or somthing and we all are sleeping in the tent! and ofcourse i woulnt tell my dad that so just said im spenging the nite at jess's! it should be fun even though it will probl. be wierd at first being i dont know any of these people, and im not to talkitive untell i get to know them but by me drinking that process will speed up qiute a bit lol i def. loosen up after i had a few drinks now if i drink to much like at juniors wedding i pretty much become easy, which i plan on NOT getting to that point, being theres gonna be alot of guys there and non of which i know and its out in the wood's lol!! ive lost my appeatite for some reason! well im going to go take a long bath and do my hair and clean, do shit that needs to be done around the house etc....
today went by very very slowly......i woke up around 7 somthin and watched some t.v., excercised while listen to the radio for about in hour, took a shower, got on the comp. created a new photolog on http://www.buzznet.com mine being http://czechdiamond.buzznet.com and got bored i actually called alot of people i havent talked to in a while, which was suprising for me cause i rearly call anyone! talked to sandy (my soon to bes sister in laws sister) for about and hour, talked to kerri for a bit and then talked to peggy for a minute but she was eating so she told me to call her back around 9 which i still havent done! and then watched some more t.v. was suppose to go shopping but my mom was so tired from such a long day of work that we wer only going to one place and we were going to go to more on sunday so i told them to go with out me! kinda pissed me off cause they left around 7 and are just now getting back but yet they were so tired etc etc!!! anyways over heard my dad talking shit as usuall, about who all chris is inviting to his wedding he says he might not come cause hes so upset but i think its just cause he's going to try to ruin it for him, cause my father is like god and omg if somthing dosent go his way he'll make you pay for it some how! i dont mention anything to him unless he talks about it in front of me or tells me about it then we usually get in an argument! and we probl. arnt going fishing tommorow or tonight cause he dint get the fuckin fishing licence which he had a while week to do! there's still a possiblity for us going shooting!! but probl. wont do that either! yeah im gonna stop writting now cause i just have a negative attitude atm! and plus i need to go eat ive harldy eaten anything today!
i get bored very easily i just realized that lol!and hmm... what else... i have exactly a week left of free time then its back to school, i got in an argument with my sister's friend (we pretty much hate one another) for about 20 minutes then we both apoligized and now were cool! lol all that time that we dreaded each other all we had to do was fight it out and it was all better! Greg is leaving sometime next week to go to spring which isnt really far away but its farther then what im use to and i wont see him for probl. about a month hes going to finish school there! :( so sad!! sabrina broke up with her boyfriend and promises she's going to stay single for a while but i have a feeling thats a lie! my parents are being freakishly nice to me, there always yelling at me for somthing i dont remeber the last time a day went by that they dint but today it was just weird im still expecting one of them to just out of no were bring up the bcp's :(! kerri's actually's keeping a relationship longer than a month! britt. finally is going out with john and im pretty sure he loves her! jessica got back from a weekend/week of pleasure with and old friend of hers, peggys enjoying the freedom from her last boyfriend who was a complete ass to her i might add, and here i am still stayin single! : )
i dont feel sick or anything atm! so im good i guess...a bit bored! still lovin my short hair and side bangs..but im pretty sure my bangs will get annoying eventually! im in the mood to go relax while taking a hot bath and listen to some music so i think im going to go do that in a sec! im suppose to be going fishing, and maybey shooting next weekend! im mostly excited about going shooting but might not! maybey ill talk my dad into taking the boat and going offshore too, but yeah! i need to go shopping next weekend too but might wait tell monday! well thats all, ttyl!! luv ya all!!
ive been a huge mess of emotion latley! im extremly unstable atm, and ive cryed more this week then i have this year! gotten in some serious arguments with a family this week, spent the nite and day with sandy, we went shopping, got stuff gor her wedding talked about alot of shit! and went swimming, got to see my bro. chris but he seemed pissed off so whatever! got home late, found the spot that i keep my bcp's at open and my jewlry box open containing my wake up pills and ibp, and now cant find my bcp's or my wake up pills and ibp, figured parents and me were going to get in are usuall argument, have him tell me how horrible i am and to go live with my bro. he dosent want to deal with me anymore and the next morning im rdy to go and he'll change his mind! but suprise suprise they act like nothing is going on there happy and if they found them they would have started yelling as soon as they could ask my sis she says she knows nothing but seems like she knows more then she's letting out! so now i have the mystery of who the hell took all my fuckin pills! and i have a fuckin headache (feels like a migrane) and i think im going to puke in a second, probl. just body reaction from all my emotions right now! damn i could just blame it on my period if i were on it right now but its not that time yet! i could really use my pain killers right now but my mother to damn lazy and i just could really use an friend right now!!
good news: i got my hair cut, i look completly diff.! i like it! thats what i was going for! i needed a change even if my looks are the only thing that can change right now! when i was at bobcat express yestarday got quite a few compliments on it and alot said i looked older, not really sure if that was what i was going for but as long as it was a change its good! wasnt to enthused to see so many people but owell!!
k so tommorow were spending the day at my bro's house cause it's his birthday! and today i spent half a day with him and my sister-in-laws family, and me and sandy ( the sister of the sis-in-law) were talking, she cuts hair as a profession, and she cut my hair last time and does a really good job so i was thinking i was a tottally diff. hair style im so tired of long and layerd i want short hair and i want side bangs ok not to sure about the side bangs just yet but i probl. will do it just for the hell of it! so if theres anyone out there that actually reads this mess....tell me what you think of some of the cuts i thought were cute and most importantly how would they look on me?
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